It’s like standing on a see saw 24/7

Everything in life is about balance we all know that but sometimes it feels as though I have taken way too much on. In case you didn’t know I am currently in my third and final year at university gaining a BA(hons) in Economics, and at this time of year as the first semester comes to a close things get crazy as deadlines loom, I had two 3000 word essays due in Thursday, another 2500 word essay due Monday. Despite finishing these with over a week to go it didn’t really add any sort of impact to the mountain of work I have due in . . . a non-word limit report (that’s when you know it will be a long one) for Econometrics and 3 exams of the 12th, 13th and 14th January. University is never meant to be easy and I never get the people who always seem to go out and do everything how they have time to study, but then again they might not study or do well while I want to come out with a 2:1 or a first and secure a good financial career.
On top of studying I work 15-20 hours a week for my Students Union shop, in which I am not just a shop assistant I’m a supervisor. My co-workers and managers are amazing and I love my job but it doesn’t half amp up the pressure, I’m not just into work I’m in charge  of everything getting in making orders, sorting delivery and stock rooms, checking the float, filling tills, helping staff dealing with customers the list never ends. So once we’ve closed for the night and cashed up and I walk home I’ve got to think if I’ve done everything ready for the morning and even when you know you have you still worry. I’ve worked in retail since I was 16 basically 4 ½ years and I know it inside out yet I still worry when I’m in charge. Yet working has become part of university life, a loan doesn’t stretch much past accommodation and you still have to pay bills, buy books and eat before you even consider anything else.
Then you have everything else balancing friends and family, a social life and it all gets a bit hectic, I love my life I wouldn’t change a thing  but sometimes it gets a bit tricky to balance and you feel like you need a hand. Luckily I have a supportive boyfriends as well as supportive family and friends.
My social life is going to have to suffer over the Christmas period so while everyone is going to parties, I have to stay in and study fitting in the odd coffee/lunch meet up opposed to nights out. It’s a shame but then again I don’t have to face awful hangovers and buy new outfits I only wear once, I get to sit at my desk or in bed in cosy pjs with baileys hot chocolate and remember a bunch of facts about the great Adam Smith.
Fun Fact: the economist Adam Smith is on the £20.00 note, without him free markets and everything else you know wouldn’t exist.
I also feel bad when I don’t posts I have loads of half started one in draft but they never inspire me enough to power though and finish, I don’t want to post for the sake of posting and I don’t have the time or energy to waste on something I don’t want to write let alone finding time to write something I do. So sorry that I’m posting less but It sometimes feels like I’m balancing on a flimsy see-saw and no matter what something has to give in some way or another or I’m going to fall.
So here’s a mini life update, I hope to post more in the new year and may get one or two posts up around Christmas/New Year if the time appears as I’ve made notes for a post or two so if I find the time to photograph and make the posts I will.
Have a great Christmas and a Happy New Year.
Love
Gwenllian Branwen
xox